Love

I know I'm loved by my friends. I love them too. But that's just what friendship is, right? I see people online having partners, having someone to talk to every day, and wake up thinking about them. I can't even find someone with similar interests to talk to. Well, I did find people, but I never got to talk to them for more than 4 or 5 minutes.
How does it feel to be hugged? But not just out of someone being nice to you or trying to calm you down. How does it feel to be hugged out of love? How does it feel to hang out with someone and just talk to them for hours and hours? Someone to do homework with someone to drink coffee with or anything else. How does it feel to spend time with them, watch a movie, or play games? Will I ever experience this in life?
Recently, I did find a person that was probably the first person in my life that made me feel something—a person that I wanted to talk to when they sent me a message back. It doesn't matter that it was online, for some reason I wanted to be better for them. I wanted to change so that they wouldn't hate me if they knew how I really was. Maybe my feelings were wrong, I don't know. If the person who I am talking about is reading this, I just want to let you know I am sorry for who I am.